Overheard this conversation by this girl complaining tt the pple in her sorority( tts another synonym for perpetual partying drinking and participating in activities in which you willingly allow others to exploit you, haha i'll be politically correct and say 90% of the time) or sth to tt effect don't dress well enuf while OTHER such groups have to dress really nice.......ok..... wat a hollowbrain discussion to start the day. like, watever! *rolls eyes* i mean im sure NOT all sorority girls are like tt, but hearing such things sure doesn't improve my image of them. somehow. anyway if u guys are interested to know what the official definition of sorority is, its supposedly a close knit community of girls which allows the fostering of true frienships, development of leadership skills and giving back to society through community work. well. i decline to comment on the validity of the statement. Many ppl choose to believe in the alternative meaning tho. wat's worse is tt i rem my fren's class mate was rushing for frat ( rushing is the process to get selected for such "elite" grps and frat is the male equivalent to sorority) and he blatantly told her tt all the community work / leadership facade is just a big load of crap n he's in it for partying, drinking and *ahem* participate in "certain" activities involving girls. hahah yup you get the idea.

hey heard this old jacky cheung song on my fren's cd.... it sounded really nice so i went to check out the lyrics. n the story is so sad cos it presents the reality of things and not the usual " you have an affair that's y u're a jerk" kinda mentality. worth listening.

度過了浪漫片段 回到了平凡家園
無奈從頭打算 盡了責任妳身邊 卻想她再見一面
心思一轉情難復原
日已記夜學冷靜 何以卻能然失眠
其實願從來不變
但你永未像她般 了解到我每一面
甘心依靠我身邊
又在抱緊這段緣 不想失去那一邊
唯盼望她跟妳終不遇見
真正愛情 只差一線 非自願欺騙
不要說穿 小心打算 總會彎轉
當錯鑄成 解釋只怕 傷害極深遠
給妳開心 給她溫暖
不能言 是這地下情
將最好的 給她給妳
三人情 問怎樣共存


haiku

Light sprinkles through the darkness
Spirals of dust magnified
Familiarity makes you a stranger
Distance separates our worlds forever.

Arghhh stupid phone card died on me. it was such a TOTAL ripoff! dun trust anything tt sounds too good to be true ( like 3 cents a min to call back to singapore?!) oh im gonna SUE the company... everything's about sueing here, hey maybe i can even get like US$500000 compensation fees? woah i'll be RICH...
*ok stop dreaming stop dreaming*
alright anyway CANDICE IF YOU ARE READING THIS, I'LL COMMAND MY ALIEN TROUPES TO ATTACK YOU IF you DUN delete ur stupid blog entry. or else......actaully what are the chances she's reading ur blog? maybe 0.5% cos u din put ur blog on PUBLIC OR did YOU?!
argh
hw, and more hw.
sianz....
essays and more essays.....

fading off.....
subliming.....

Hey! guess wat? Seventeen magazine is coming to UM to do a sch zone feature and some photoshoot thingy. n the magazine i joined is liasing with them! sighz I'm torn between studying for the exams and volunteering to help out...... this is soooo sad. y does the thing have to be on Oct 2/3 when exams are on the 8 and 9!!!!!!! this sucks.

Hey I actually learnt sth substantial in haiku class today!Its like we discussed about zen because it's sometimes incorporated into haiku. Anyway, the whole idea of sabi ( a branch of zen i think) is to take a step back and look at the world from another perspective, to observe the world at a point where you are detached from all material possesions and emotional desires. Its a form of existential loneliness, where you are at peace and feel happiness from within your soul instead of joy gained through materialistic goods. Cos when u desire something and you eventually get it, another desire will take that place of your fulfilled one. Thus, you can never attain true happiness. Interesting? haha. reminds me of all those new age guru sayings.

hey! check this out!
www.jeffreyfulvimari.com
His drawings are so unique and beautiful it makes u go ahhh!
In case you don't know who he is, he's the guy who illustrated madonna's new book. im not the least interested in what she has to offer in terms of literal value but I'm so gonna buy the book for the illustrations. by the way, he's the same guy who did the cute drawings on the mos burger wrappers and cups!

Memories may fade with time to become a blur of images
but the feelings that come with it form an indistinct rainbow when it's raining in our hearts.

I know i'm supposed to be doing an essay now. But this is tempting to say.
A person in my haiku class asked this question:
" Is the morning glory a flower which opens up in the morning?"
THINK ABOUT THAT.
ok. now LAUGH.

Doing laundry sucks! and having to put up with pple who dun collect their laundry when the time is up sucks even more!. gosh. what's wrong with those lazy idiots anyway? guess time doesn't exist in their dimensions. I was so happy that one machine is finally available but when i opened the door, the most irritating thing enters my sight. Some IDIOT didn't collect her laundry again! i feel like dumping her clothes on the floor so tt they'll have to spend money to wash it again! hahahahaa. ok i din do tt.. haha wat a pity. some good side of me stopped that action. i'm such an angel. but then again, y should i be so nice to wait for her to come back while i'll have to stand around and waste my time? So i had to pick up tt icky wet laundry ( who knows wat parasitic organisms there're on the clothes?! haha) and dump it on this chair ( its dusty but too bad) so i could use the machine. Guess what? the same thing happened when it was time to use the dryer! I;m just so lucky when it comes to such things. It was this comforter and bedsheets, so damn heavy, took me a while to get it out of the way. ok. anyway, when i came back to collect my clothes, i realised somebody has changed my cycle from permanent press(medium heat) to whites( high heat)! must be tt sickening owner of the previous load ( cos i dumped her stuff on the dusty chair, she was late ok! cant blame me). my clothes cannot take high heat! luckily it was only 40 min into the drying so i could still salvage the situation. Luckily my clothes weren't damaged or anything. or i'll wish her eternal bad luck. hahahahahaha
ok dats all for another entry into the evil diary! haha

*in retrospect, i think i was quite mean. but well stress makes trivial things irritating. well i guess it makes a person mean too! haha well, MEANER, in my case! haha*

Dusts in the wind
Lost in the world of sanity
Wandering into obscurity
Eternally in the dimension of the forgotten.

人进进出出在我生命 季节更改幻变天地 岁月流过
遗憾若是放不下 仍可学习去感激得到过的

My whole brain is filled with HAIKU now that I'm trying to do an essay on the usage of seasonal elements in japanese poetry. ok ,so i might as well make use of my creative instincts.

Silver moon rising
elm tree sways in gentle wind
chilling autumn night

brrrr..... its really cold tonite. im freezing. if im freezing now, i'll never survive winter. i heard your brain cells can freeze to death. scary. exams are in nov too. wat does tt say? oh well, if everyone's brains are gonna freeze, its fine with me. hahaha. i feel my psychotic side slowly creeping out now. i better stop writing.
back to dreaded homework.

Mirror by Sylvia Plath

I am silver and exact. I have no preconceptions.
Whatever I see, I swallow immediately.
Just as it is, unmisted by love or dislike
I am not cruel, only truthful
The eye of a little god, four-cornered.
Most of the time I meditate on the opposite wall.
It is pink, with speckles. I have looked at it so long
I think it is a part of my heart. But it flickers.
Faces and darkness separate us over and over.

Now I am a lake. A woman bends over me.
Searching my reaches for what she really is.
Then she turns to those liars, the candles or the moon.
I see her back, and reflect it faithfully
She rewards me with tears and an agitation of hands.
I am important to her. She comes and goes.
Each morning it is her face that replaces the darkness.
In me she has drowned a young girl, and in me an old woman
Rises toward her day after day, like a terrible fish.

*Do we really know who we are? Or are we lost in a world where boundaries of normality and insanity can no longer be defined?*