I've decided to keep this blog up.
Because I have no where else to store my old entries.
But I've moved.

i did so badly for freaking econ...
sighz.... i feel like i've disappointed myself and everyone......... and like i've wasted my school fees, my studying time and everything..........
gosh i feel so bad.
i feel so bad that giving me a gucci bag now wouldn't even make me smile.

最後和你雖如我那所料
先挑引我的人愛得比我少
然後見面更少
讓我多謝你那幾秒

I found out that Sex on the Beach is a REAL cocktail!!!!!
must try it out next time.

當有天你想離開我，請不需交待什麼。
我會惦記在這空間，我們曾經一起過。
失去，其實算得上什麼？待有天我回來，也許你已不再愛我。
我有预感你现在可能已经不爱我，
然而，我却不知自己究竟在奢望什麼。

poor me is sneezing non stop...
hope that's not cos people are scolding me.
or maybe they're thinking of me!
haha

oh my goshhhhhhh my dad replied to my mail he is so sweeet!!! hahaha... i shan't post the email here. but oh manz after horrendous econs today ( which i think i totally screwed, serious this time), made my day!
thanks dad! ( tho i noe he wont read this blog.. haha better not)
On the flip side, freaking emotionless people continue to irritate the hell out of me.

To quote my dad: " it's sad to see people live on their own
with no one to share their joy and sorrow."

An inviting and refreshing combination of Vodka, unsweetened pineapple juice, a touch of raspberry liquor, a hint of melon liquor, and a splash of cranberry.
I SO WANT this fragrance!!! ( though the name is pretty suggestive, but who cares? haha)
Would any kind soul just be sweet and get it for me? wahahaaa
Click here to see the rest of the sprays! they all have cute names!

相識 交往 如果 很順利前行 是情人
相識 交往 如果 彼此也等多一等 逐漸變熟人


heh heh big brands always efficient and reliable! Although i chose the shade wrongly, they've already processed the change within 24 hours! wahahaha... now i don't need to return the pdt. cool.
and I'll be earning 50 bucks in total for my psych experiment. Gosh I sound like some money minded shrew.
*shudder* heh heh.

Remember this song?

Somebody - Depeche Mode

I want somebody to share
Share the rest of my life
Share my innermoust thoughts
Know my intimate details
Someone who'll stand by my side
And give me support
And in return
She'll get my support
She will listent to me
When I want to speak
About the world we live in
And life in general
Though my views may be wrong
They may even be perverted
She will hear me out
And won't easily be converted
To my way of thinking
In fact she'll offen disagree
But at the end of it all
She will understand me

I want somebody who cares
For me passionately
With every thought and with every breath
Someone who'll help me see things
In a different light
All the things I detest
I will almost like
I don't want to be tied
To anyone's strings
I'm carefully trying to steer clear
Of those things
But when I'm asleep
I want somebody
Who will put their arms around me
And kiss me tenderly
Though things like this
Make me sick
In a case like this
I'll get away with it.

WOOHOOO.....
I'm gonna make 35 bucks this wk from psychology studies!
Just enough to cover my shu uemura loose powder. yayz.!

Think this is sushi? Think again!
click here!
Now if someone could send me some of these, i'd be so happy. haha.

This song has a title which translates to Letter to Keanu Reeves.
Cute? heh heh.
天天寫　封封寫滿六百句的我愛你
寫了十年從未覺得太乏味
深信最後終收得到答覆　荷李活美不美？！

ｋ先生：可否阻你十八秒鐘　看看信
如果你認同人是有需要造夢
給我寄贈簽名的信封　只要一封

繼續被動來做普通　的大眾
實在沒有用　情願不怕面紅
頑強地進攻　爭取你認同
才年年月月晚晚朝朝密密寄信

＊明知我們隔著　個太空
仍然將愛慕天天　入進信封
抬頭望星空發夢仍然自信
等到遠處你為我寫　那一封
（等到你會破例　答覆我一封）

人人都怕難怕倦　怕撲空
全球得我未死心　沒有放鬆
專心得超級偶像　也動容
一直相信　所以給你一直寫信
（專心得金剛鐵石　也動容
一直相信　不怕多寄幾百封信）＊


ｆ小姐：真感激你為我每天也寄信
年輕我亦曾同樣那麼愛造夢
所以決定親筆的答覆　等你相信

繼續被動來做普通　的大眾
實在沒有用情願不怕面紅
頑強地進攻　爭取那認同
如朝朝代代每個不朽烈士奮勇

OH MY GOSH!!!!
my dad is sooooooooooooooooo nice and sweet!
i rem telling how disappointed and ripped off i felt when someone found out abt the actuarial academic prize/scholarships and didn't tell me. I told him i gotta start finding out things for myself.
and you know what?
I just got this email from him.
He actually sent me this link to the actuarial scholarships available!
oh my gosh
*touched*
i guess your family will ALWAYS be there to see you through.
everything.
oh man... i hate it when i sound so cliche.. but yah i really just felt really touched.
really.
(^-^)

Ruimin, your sis v funny.

Me on icq : heyyyy
Your sis: i'm her sis hahahahaaaaa..

(-_-)"|

Didn't go to the party. Studied ( i'm so angellic) econ.
People drink coffee to stay awake.
We had a vodka shot each.
Madness.
wahahahaaa....

Anyway just found out something pretty bad.... I don't know if it's true. But if is, some people are such major jerks.

(click on photo to see larger clearer image)
Oh my gosh!!!! I found the name of my dream hotel in greece!!!!! It's in Santorini!
HOTEL PORTO FIRA!!!!!!!
ahhhhh
check it out!
*click here* ( remember to see the panorama view... ull be in awe!)

This is really wierd... I've been receiving free issues of this YM magazine and I think that's cos someone subscribed it for me as a gift. But I don't know anyone who did that! I don't think its my relatives cos they didn't say anything. really strange! But who cares? I don't mind some free entertainment. hahaha though I really wished it was Nylon or Vogue. Just read an issue of YM, pretty shallow magazine. ( prob tts cos its for for high schoolers)

Finally found a passport to fashionistic indulgences in this slumpy land of bygone tastes.
6 months is too long a time for me to catch up with the world. If i stay here for too long without a substantial magazine to update me, i might turn into someone who only knows yesterday's trends.

Five things I learnt abt St Patricks Day( which is today):
1. People wear green. ( green pants, green shirts, green jackets. nov ull love it!)
2. It is synonymous with drinking. ( well Americans drink all the time, so since today it's a special drinking day, they start downing beer in the AFTERNOON)
3. Students turn up in class, DRUNK, babbling non sense. Some leave half way because of headache.
4. Classroom reeks of cheap beer smell.
5. The streets are "happier" because people start getting high at 4pm.

In case you are wondering, I didn't drink. haha. It's beer u know... ewww.. i only drink that when there're no other choices.
I really think everyone has their limits. I finally flared up big time today. Even I felt scared of myself.
It was surprising my dorm door survived the slamming.

Heh heh....
I got The Sonnet ( sounds nice? haha that's cos I am!)
The Sonnet
Deliberate Gentle Love Dreamer (DGLDf)
Romantic, hopeful, and composed. You are the Sonnet. Get it? Composed?

    Sonnets want Love and have high ideals about it. They're conscientious people, caring & careful. You yourself have deep convictions, and you devote a lot of thought to romance and what it should be. This will frighten away most potential mates, but that's okay, because you're very choosy with your affections anyway. You'd absolutely refuse to date someone dumber than you, for instance.
    Lovers who share your idealized perspective, or who are at least willing to totally throw themselves into a relationship, will be very, very happy with you. And you with them. You're already selfless and compassionate, and with the right partner, there's no doubt you can be sensual, even adventurously so.
    You probably have lots of female friends, and they have a special soft spot for you. Babies do, too, at the tippy-top of their baby skulls.

Part II of New York photos are up!
*click here*

I found a really nice old track on the Mona Lisa Smile OST, a nicely done cover version by Tori Amos.
The feeling of old romantism is simply enchanting. Classic and timeless.

You Belong to Me

See the pyramids along the Nile
Watch the sunrise on a tropic isle
Just remember, darling all the while
You belong to me

See the market place in old Algiers
Send me photographs and souvenirs
Just remember when a dream appears
You belong to me

I'll be so lonesome without you
Maybe you'll be lonesome too
And blue

Fly the ocean in a silver plane
See the jungle when it's wet with rain
Just remember 'til you're home again
You belong to me

Maybe you'll be lonesome too
And blue

oh my gosh!!!! this is sooooo damn cute!
*click here!*

Two more midterms next week and 4 more days to friday. I think I'm insane to go partying 4 days before 2 exams but life is such a drag I need some vodka to survive this state of monotony.
Feeling slightly languid now, choosing to ignore the work piling up on my table. There're tons of linear algebra I don't understand but just can't be bothered to check them out.
Instead I go to check out Miss Hk website. Wow the past winners are totally gorgeous! Sadly, the quality has been declining since 2000, which explains why I've stopped tuning in. I didn't know Maggie Cheung made it to the top 16 in Miss Universe or Miss World. Amazing.
*click here*
Wanted to put up this new leon lai song but his singing really totally sucks, esp the high parts. So I shall just forget it and save all of your ears.

Nothingness fills the chasm of a broken conversation.

No calls this weekend.
Am I expecting any anyway?
No. I don't think so.

Anyway I hope europe trip's still on though my dad's kinda not interested in Barcelona so i would have to convince him. But he said we'll definitely stop by san francisco before I head back to Michigan. ( yeah sausalito). I might also most likely take the actuarial exam in Singapore since there's a test center for there. So yah... I'll be back earlier than expected! haha isn't that great? I know you all miss me hahahaa.
yup that's all for updates.
Maths time again.
Midterms tomorrow.
Gd luck ! ( to myself)

A : Sometimes you don't want to bring it up cos it's history.
T : But history's still a memory.

Don't you think this quote is just CLASSIC?
haha

Fire on the Side

Purple Sunset
Orange Moon
I'm Alone Again
Without You
I Knew Someone
Had To Lose

Kiss Goodbye
Go Back To Your Separate Life
That You Have With Her
Ashes Blow
In The Windy Skye
Take My Heart
As You Go

I never wanted to be your weekend lover
I only wanted to be some kind of friend
I could never steal you from another
I only wanted to see you laughing in the purple rain

There's a party next friday.
What a relief.
FINALLY.
I need some excitement. haha. Life ihere is totally such a bore.
heh. Vodka. yeah.
I think I need it.
Seriously.

Loneliness;
A Plague to us,
A Nirvana to others.

are the lyrics really that hard to understand?
haha

well it's just saying how an angel has fallen from heaven, with her wings broken by heart break.
eyes red with soreness, the angel meets the devil.
she slips into decadence, willing to try everthing from alcohol to cigarettes.
at this moment, she just wants to swing in the madness of a fantasy.
the last line means... you can try everything, but something as intense as love and passion, you can only try it once.

I found these sammi cheng ancient lyrics by chance. It so amazingly fit the first part of my blog story!Ok, i know nobody's gonna read the whole chunk. So I just posted up the most relevant lines.

是折翼失戀的天使 紅著眼傷感的天使 遇著魔鬼的天使
從俗世瞭解失意 煙酒想一試 夜半飛車想一試
夢幻裡瘋癲想一試 壯烈愛戀卻是不可再次

After talking to a few people, ai... i 've decided to forget it. Afterall, I don't need somemore depression to add to my exam stress. Could I have been too sensitive? someone suggested that but I still don't think so.
Sorry if I sounded scary... haha....
I think I really sounded totally vindictive.
my internet make up order's gonna come in a few days haha. Now I can get stuff I can't get from Ann Arbor!

"Disappointments are inevitable... learn to live with it."
quote of the day.

I'm freaking disappointed with the world and how some people just disgusts me.
People tell me, don't expect too much from people or I should just forget about it because getting angry will only make me feel lousier.
But the fact stays that the world is disappointing. You don't know who to trust and who's gonna rip you off the next second.
Well too bad. Wanna play games with me? Fine.
I know I sound damn vehement and vindictive.
Whatever.
I'll feel better tomm.
I think.

I think I should start looking for those academic awards. Just found out they give away 1000 Bucks damn easily one. Must go and scout for funding for my clothes. haha.
sucks man... i just missed this one... get A/A- in maths can already.
wat the hell.
Just think about what I can buy with US 1000 is enough to motivate me.

haha helped my friend with his mandarin hw
quite funnnny.
I seem to be always helping ppl with chinese haha
Anyway today me and my friend were in the lift and suddenly it just shock non stop! so freaky... we just froze and didn't even have the sense to press the emergency button. Luckily this guy in the lift did. But the lift kept doing its dance. It was so scary.

click here to see his photo
Candice, how can u call this "OK only" looks??? He's damn hot lah pls.
Guess what? He's coming to perform at umich, but the friday before my finals! Damn. But I must still go!
hahaha
Peter Cincotti is the best!

Linear algebra is killing me....... so i'll just post a lame joke of the night haha its quite funny ok haha

Me( braincells being killed by freaking linear algrebra) : my lifeline really looks v short leh haha

My friend:haiya then draw a line make it longer lor ha
use permanent ink

haha

back to studying.
No. I think I should sleep. haha.
sucks din do much again tonite.

I might be going San Francisco in Summer, if I'm not travelling to Europe. It all depends on my parents. haha. Well, at least there's Sausalito.

My playlist now:
Fly Me to the Moon (a really nice slow version)
Michael Buble - Kissing a Fool
Michael Buble - Down with Love
Peter Cincotti - Rainbow Connection
Peter Cincotti - Sway
Stacey Kent - They Can't Take That Away From Me
Liz Phair - Why Can't I

Try downloading these.... they're really good. Or get them from me!
Perfect for some quality solitary time.

Happiness
a veil of facade,
a mask of deceit.
Hidden beneath the sugar coated film
are tears not to be seen,
Do you understand me at all?
Or are you just pretending not to fall?

一個鐘之前

看著分针轉呀轉
時間令彼此都這樣遠
說再見才明白到
最幸福的都最短

曾經我和你
就坐在對面一間餅店
咖啡苦和甜
回憶中蛻變
還留甜蜜到唇邊


我在期待 如你在尚在
或有天餐廳中剛巧相見 分享半張餐檯
掛念無害 別惹來感慨
你我彼此間丁點小火花都是愛
那怕彼此間多麼短都感激都感激一夕愛

還總算完美
在道別那日新裝很美
從此失去你
臨走擁抱你
仍然能為我打氣

有過的東西捉不緊都總可一直愛

Shan Shan drank FIRE!!!!! hahahaaa
Manz... My cousin's husband lost a bet to her and she's getting a gucci wallet... wahahahaa i also want! haha

haha went to the K Grams kids Fair today! ( the one where I have this primary school kid as pen pal)
But so sad, my pen pal couldn't go! Cos her family planned this ski trip. It was so coincidental that my room mate's pen pal couldn't turn up too cos apparently she's really good frens with my pen pal and their families went on the ski trip tog!
So they gave me another kid, Selina. She's really hyper, energetic and talkative. Made my day! Made me so much happier haha.
The weather is so nice today too. Soon I'll be able to wear my darling skirts. haha.
Updated my photo blog.
*click here*

Would anybody like to sponsor me to Sausalito?
haha.
You get my company!
( There's a Tiffany Park there btw haha)

Crickets call, courting their ladies in star-dappled green
Thickets tall, until the morning comes up like a dream
All muted and misty,so drowsy now I'll take what sleep I can
I know that I miss you, but I don't know where I stand

Absolut site.... Absolut Vodka
click here --> http://absolut.com/
It's a really artistic and entertaining site!
There's even a hillarious pick up line generator.
" Hi my name is Debbie, but you can call me tonight."
need i say more? haha

I thot going to New Orleans to party is real pathetic.
Orleans and York are worlds apart.
Plus nov said it's a gay city.
At least Cancun.... now that's much better.
But I checked up on the New Orleans website.
Does seem pretty cool.
Maybe perceptions lead to misconceptions about reality.
Sometimes we miss out on some of life's best things just because we refuse to believe they exist.
We often presume what we assume is true,
without ever doubting our own trivial thoughts.
I think that is why miracles don't happen anymore
It's because we don't allow them to.

super long story entry. read.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAN SHAN!
(^_^)

i'll be posting all the songs from sammi cheng's new album this whole week.... haha enjoy.
as for my blog story, i thot of this new twist... which should be quite good... but if i use it, i'd have to end the story real soon.. so im still thinking whether to incorporate it.

updated blog story, really short entry though.