这首歌让我想到，
有时候，说再见并不是因为你已经不爱他。
你太爱他，所以你不想逼他选择。
或者，你更加不想看见的，是令自己失望的结果。
其实，一个人为什么可以爱着一个人，又同时爱上另一个？
而最终，被选上的，多数都不会是后来的那个。
是因为后者没有争取？或是她根本没这个权力和机会？

这首歌是，郑秀文的　“我爱你，再见。”

也許喝下了香檳 面前臉孔都英俊迷人
人潮蠕動舞會中 你這主人偏走近
Lady shall we dance 聲音彷彿舞動了森林
在耳邊說 想得到我的心

也許那便叫開心 漫無目的不需要下文
誰長留在舞會中 轉舞伴便要換人
甜蜜還甜嗎 當天寫低了號碼的人
現在你好嗎 可想得到我的心

懊悔嗎 明天也將繼續 但那麼精彩過一宿
完了至知怎叫孤獨 是你說的嗎 人生太多節目
但我卻花光我積蓄 來你國家想半工讀
但是只找到你的家屬

也許注定那一天 重頭認識怎叫纏綿
回頭凝望你抽煙 燻黑僅有的光線
Lady shall we dance? 即將一生困在耳邊
現在你好嗎 星星因你多閃

你記得嗎 人生這麼美麗 但你那青春的軀體
和世界終止了關係 謝謝在當天的我 總清麗
讓你在生之年 緣份微微擦肩 悠悠調情半天
我愛你再見 我愛你再見 我愛你再見 我愛你再見

Ok the photo album should work now!
*click*
I set it on private the first time round.

If thoughts of me cross your mind once in a while
If thoughts of me make you smile once in a while
If you find that you miss me once in a while
If you think of me fondly once in a while
Once in a while
Once in a while is enough for me
Cause thoughts of you cross my mind once in a while
And thoughts of you make me smile once in a while
Cause I find that I miss you once in a while
And I think of you fondly once in a while
And once in a while is enough for now

You are a Courtesan!
Lovely, Intelligent, and Talented!


You are a lover of royalty and fantasy and probably express this artistically, musically, or in writing, or absorb yourself in works related to it. You are gifted with a beautiful intellect and a wonderful imagination and creative spirit!
Which Royalty Are You? Find out! By Nishi.

It's 4am and i'm being wuliao again! hahaha
take the quiz!

ok uploaded some photos from my roommate's cam:
*click here*

BACK FROM NY!
Anyway most of the pics are in my fren's digicam!
so good stuff obviously have to wait
But i've put up some photos taken using my handphone camera on my fashion blog....
*click here*
I think if next time I get to work in New York, I'll seriously go broke. I never knew I could be that scary when it comes to shopping.... i am seriously freaked and I feel bad for spending so much.... I'm not really gonna ask for bday presents from my parents cos they sponsored part of my shopping in new york.. haha so u all know what to do lah... haha kidding i'm damn thick skinned man.
anyway im kinda tired now....
will blog later.

I'm supposed to be in la la dream land now cos I need to wake up at 3am... but i can't sleep im so gonna screw up my health.. yest I slept at 5 i was zombified for the whole day. During psych exp, i think i was having rem rebound and dreaming while im awake, literally... I'm such a bad subject pool. ( check up REM to understand what I'm talking abt and novalia dun say i act cheem again)
ok i'll try to sleep now....
NEW　YORK 's gonna be so exciting
( im gonna get the gucci bag cos its 90US D LESS than Singapore price! I think dat day my fren said something about if the ppl all give a portion of their wealth to suffering nations, the situation will improve... instead of them spending money extravagantly.. i think he was talking abt me... haha)
Anyway.... sera... sorryyyyyyy i can't go up last minute so sorryyyyyyyyyy....
contact me ok? see whether we can work things out...

Lost In Translation isn't a comedy... it has a subtle melancholy hidden beneath its superficial comedic surface.
A man falls in love with a girl. He has a wife and she has a husband.
Somehow in this strange foreign land, familiarity brought them together.
There was this surreal whirlwind of a romance where for a moment, they ignored moral implications and obligations; they weren't who they were because they were in love.
The love was unspoken; maybe there wasn't a need to because it was an understanding between both of them.
Yet ending it seems to be the only option because a dream will always end in waking up to reality.
At the end of the day, you go back to recognising your ties and obligation fulfilments.
It's not that they don't love each other anymore, but because it was simply impossible to carry on that love.
Sometimes, there're just things you need to keep and others you decide to give up.
It was wrong because of an inappropriate timing.
What if he wasn't married? What if she didn't have a husband?
Maybe there are no "what ifs" in this world.
Maybe all that remains will be a beautiful memory.
I think I teared at the ending.
The parting at the end broke my heart. It was sad because there were no other options.
Because life goes on.

OMG!!!!!!!!
I FORGOT TO CHARGE MY CLIE AND ALL MY DATA IS GONE
PLEASE MAIL ME ALL YOUR ADD AND TEL NO AGAIN!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HOW????
I LOST MY RELATIVE'S ADDS AS WELL!
THIS IS VERY IMPORTANT... IF NOT U ALL BIRTHDAY NO CARD HOR

OK found my backup info
so this applies to SERA ,NOVALIA AND HUIMING ONLY

but i lost my dad's note to me.... =(

wahhhhh I almost missed my econ exam today!!!!!
what the crap... i was so lucky I woke up in time at 8.20 (exam was 8.40) or else I would have so died. There's no such thing as re taking here so it'll surely be zero.
I desperately need a good alarm clock! ( anyone willing to buy me one?) haha

No cannot.... cannot buy me clock, dat's like cursing me hahaa

New photos are up!
*click here*
The last photo is my own creation from improvising on one of the dresses! hahaaa

The worst thing one could do after being exposed for a lie, is to turn the tables and question the person about his/her percentage of certainty regarding that deduction.

This song is pretty old... but it's one of my fav oldies!
enjoy...
I've been searching for the music file since long time ago and i've finally found it.

明天不一定会更好
但更好的明天一定会来。

Lyrics to this song is really good.... scroll under the Karena Lam photo. ( i have a feeeling you all dunno there're lyrics beneath the album cover)

I've finally updated my story blog. Please go visit!
Stress really gives me inspirations to write.
Somehow I don't think it's getting very good.... maybe my expectations are too high or my writing has deteriorated. I hope its not the latter.

You know sometimes you think you've forgotten a person, be it a long lost friend or someone you used to like. Then all of a sudden, you realise you miss that person. It's just a feeling you get when you're walking alone in the cold. You are reminded of the wonderful times you've had. Sometimes, it's just hard to forget because a memory will always remain. Somehow, you wonder what made that happiness short lived. Is it because of circumstances which cannot be compromised? Or maybe you just stop trying because you know some things are impossible. What's the point if the end of the tunnel is a road block?
When's the last time you contacted your primary school best friend? Yes, you vaguely remember where she is now, but when's the last time you said "hi"? Do you still know her telephone number? or whether she has moved? Every connection made is a blessing. But how often do we really treasure that? Sometimes we let things pass too easily, because we're too busy, too lazy or just too passive. We'd rather stay with what we're familiar with because it's too hard to deviate into that region of unfamiliarity.

Have you missed anyone lately?

i shall be more enthusiastic about going for any activities from now on.
btw.. I really hate people who cant be trusted, or go back on their words.
When they agree on something, no matter how trivial it is, and they betray that trust.... you won't want to trust them on anything anymore.

今晚我愛的人 在散心 可惜我太不幸
沒有份 而他此際可能和情人擁吻
人在慶節我卻箭穿心
如果佳節不能 和情人擁吻 情願這晚快過快熄燈

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!
( sorry for the sad lyrics)

林嘉欣--二月十四的約會 is this new song which I think sounds very good and suits the whole Valentine's Day thing ( wanted to put crap but well dat'll be too cynical haha) which is this saturday btw. haha. its a sad song ( yup since when do i post happy songs anyway?!) haha
I cant find the mp3 so I just sang a verse from it. It's pretty nice.
Listen!
*click here*

重返抵花街 未踏破高爭鞋 你已經遷徙
令甜蜜氣氛 也都破壞
誰都牽手那姿態 比我愉快

二月十四的約會 這個日子掛念誰
不再是一對 這洋燭都要吹
明年和你的約會 不會認得我是誰
那節日都逝去 忘不了就等下去 八十歲

Here are my results.... its quite accurate for most of them.
1. You are attracted to those who have split personality, like cold
as ice on the outside, but hot as fire in the heart.

2. In the process of courtship, the approach that would make you
feel irresistable is creative, never let you feel bored.

3. The impression you would like to give to your lover is stylish.

4. You don't like it when your partner is emotional and/or too
moody; and you don't know how to please him/her.

5. The kind of relationship you would like to build with your
partner is that both of you can talk about everything and
anything, no secret is kept.

6. You are tolerant; you'll try very hard not to commit adultery.

7. You are afraid of marriage, you think it would take away your
freedom.

8. At this moment, you are quite self-centered; you think of love as
something you can get and trash anytime you want.


No 8 makes me sound v bad.. so its not true ok. hahaa
1 & 2 are quite accurate haha

It's 2.45 am. I am still at my linear algebra.... I feel like I'm totally not prepared and I'm so bad at proofing the freaking theorems ( like you have to prove crap lie (AB)C=A(BC) ????) wat the hell manz....
only freaks will love tt kinda stuff I tell you. No wonder there're no cute guys at all in my class. DAMN.
Super grouchy now...... tired and drained like a wilted dandelion( dunno y Im thinking of dandelion) floating in the wind.... ok forget it I'm crapping and drifting off into la la land.....

Doing psych now.
This is a bit freaky. According to Sigmund Freud, the unconscious thoughts, memories and desires that are well below the surface of conscious awareness but that nonetheless exert great influence on behaviour. Have u had seemingly meaningless slips of the tongue? or mis typing of words? They could well represent what you truly think regarding that subject. Its true for me at least. Sometimes I type something which I don't mean to say but actually is the truth. Its like the unconscious controlling the conscious mind. Wierd huh?

Hehe I just realised my hk fren looks like Yumiko! ( some hk singer haha) after she was complaining tt her bf's fren's think she looks like her! and apparently one of the hk guys ( freshman) used to go out with one of girls from the hk grp Cookies! Amazed. Oh candice, rem tt XBF song i let u hear? The new singer used to be my hk fren's sister's classmate. The world is so damn small.

Hey I suddenly just feel like saying THANK YOU! to all of you... for being such great friends, for helping me along whenever I needed someone to listen, to talk to, to complain to, to laugh with or simply just being there for me. ( this is so cliche and cheesy man). I think I can't find people as wonderful as all of you!
Miss you guys lots... always.
Yup that's all. Have a great week ahead!

( I hope I dun sound like tt idiot... heh you know who I'm talking abt rite? Dat screwed up piece of crap hahaha, sorry i just gotta be mean after being nice, that's me)

Its funny how at some point of time, you anticipate something to happen so much and when it finally does, its nothing like you imagined it to be. Maybe it's because the feeling has passed or it has never been up to us to predict life's little outcomes. It's wierd how two people can pretend not to know each other when they meet, managing at most an awkward forced smile or two. Sometimes, you just don't know what to say anymore after a long time, probably because you've never really known the person too well in the first place. So both individuals keep quiet or talk to accompanying friends without ever turning to each other to speak, even if one of them is just in front of the other in the queue. There is just something about face to face interactions which seem so difficult in certain situations. Maybe that is one reason why many prefer online communication in the form of ICQ or MSN. It's unfathomable that two people who have just carried an online conversation a day before can both simultaneously be as distant as strangers in reality the next day. Nobody wants to make an effort to break that barrier, because maybe it really isn't necessary anymore.
Sometimes, I think humans are really complex, to the point of incomprehension.

I chance upon this dialogue on some site. I think its damn nice!

"今生今世，你会爱我多久?"

“直到你不爱我为止。"

Weekly fashion finds are up.
Go check!
*click here*

hey this is a pretty meaningful song about growing up.
Do you still remember how much you wanted to grow up when you were just a child? You see the endless privileges and possibilities a "grown up" is entitled to. Now that we're all "grown up", i guess sometimes we just wish that we could return to the innocence of childhood instead of facing the harsh realities and pain of life, to a time where simple joys exist and sadness is fleeting because happiness is so abundant, to a world where there is no need for independence and your only worry is not getting that Barbie you want. It is wonderful that a child always seem to see a beautiful side of the world which cynical adults fail to comprehend. I wish that we could all be child-like sometimes, just to escape from this materialistic complication once in a while, and linger in the beauty of simplicity.

毛毛公仔 從前極度美麗 不過人大個了
抱它不夠實際 從前溫室 原來竟這樣貴
現在要喊 誰為我解圍 誰在呵護安慰

從前曾習慣不停叫 爸爸媽媽
一個人倦了總想到家 何時又再坐再臂內
抱我飲茶 原來大個了要很高代價
# 為何還做我的媽媽 如老友好嗎
請顧問細訴我要怎麼找到他
挨世界 好玩嗎 人情世故 凶險吧
求你告訴我不算可怕 從前很想
提前獨立多好 不要誰來教我
自己總會用腦 毛毛公仔 原來始終恨抱
外面世界 誰為我操勞 憑什麼做得到

世面寧願不瞭解 留在這家中最大
往日年紀很細 最要關懷
有怪莫怪 只怪 我已踏進大人的世界

Life has been pretty uninteresting of late. Nothing dramatically sad or happy. ( no more entertaining stories for you novalia... haha) Just plain and uneventful. Everyday seems to be a clone of yesterday. It's a pathetic cycle of boredom, with exams and tests adding to the mundane misery of life.

Only interesting point today! What an amazing discovery to realise some Americans have NO CLUE as to what MSG is. Are you surprised?

hey i've set up a new page for my stories
www.surreal-love.blogspot.com

This song has great lyrics. ( TRY to read them)

與你約錯終點 命運都改編
我愛你快了一點 你發現慢了點
某天我吻過你腮邊 邊情節也擾亂
最好全部記憶收起 終會淡忘你的臉
如果盛世之戀 到日落時就結束
開遍全城燈火 照亮了天際
試問白晝會否不完 繼續熱鬧象下午兩點
若我不出家門 鐘表摔破 窗廉緊閉著
時間會不會暫停 命運都改編
我愛你快了一點 你發現慢了點
也許我怕錯過今天 人潮將彼此蓋掩
永遠擦過你身邊 碰上仍遇不見

若我不出家門 鐘表摔破 窗廉緊閉著
時間會不會暫停 能讓我末做的做完
也許你我會分開 共度著一生
象日夜等不到黎明黃昏 於無聊時路過的籃球場上
於玩樂後經過的便利店中 於靜默地鐵
於寂寞路邊 都落力地找你的迷途情感
當你我錯過今天 人潮將彼此蓋掩
仍期望有生一天 跟你有緣吻一遍
與你約錯終點 再邂逅是那天

Would you go for K mart sale items if you've experienced the wondrous styles of Gucci? Or rather, would you still think that K mart sells junkie trash if you've never known Dior? Probably not. If your world consists of Walmart, This Fashion and tacky clothing brands, you would never find anything wrong with what you are wearing. Because, you've simply never seen the best. Ignorance is bliss. It brings contentment with the simplest necessities. Who cares about cutting and style when all you've seen are T-shirts and berms? But what if you step out of your tiny glasshouse and chance upon a Gucci boutique accidentally. You notice that dazzling pink dress which encapsules the representation of a style icon. You think to yourself, "This is it.". But when you reach into your pockets, you realise the amount you've saved up through the years of enduring hideous clothes is actually enough to pay for only one tenth of it. At this moment, the salesgirl also announces to you that it has been sold to and reserved by another individual who walked into the shop just a few days ago. It is a limited edition spring/summer item which will not be produced again. Starting to save for it now is no longer an option. After you've seen the wonders of class and glamour, and you return to your little enclosed junkie space, even the best will still look ugly. You can't seem to find a piece of clothing presentable enough to be worn, even though you've been wearing the same thing for years. Suddenly, they transform into remarkably hideous items. You make cruel comments towards every piece of clothing you see. You refuse to see anything good in all those hideous creatures around you. There seems to be something wrong in every one of them. Either they had hideous patterns, or they were simply oversized. The sight of them irritates you because they remind you so much of that dress.

It is funny how the ugliest and vile things remind us of what beauty is.

"The bitterness of misery lies in the withdrawal of happiness."
It's as if someone played a sadistic prank on your life, dropping you the link to happiness and then cutting the line abruptly. You're left standing there, holding that tiny piece of string and wondering whether to throw it away or to hold on to it. It reminds you so much of the pain but yet that's the only memory you have of the happiness which you were once so close to reaching. You try to smile at the beauty of the world around you but all you notice is the absence of that happiness. Reminders pop up in the most unexpected places whenever you attempt to look for happiness elsewhere.The more you hide from it, the more it comes back at you. You cant let go unless another happiness comes along. But you're afraid of holding on to that string again, because there's always the fear of it being cut, and you, falling into darkness to repeat that never ending cycle of losing, finding and losing finally again.