I love this top and pants ensemble! Especially the pants. The photo isn't really so clear cos my phone camera is lousy. There are actually little details on the front and back pocket. really cute. The whole thing is from marc jacobs so of cos damn ex. I have self control so nvr buy. haha.
Ok these are the stuff I bought

heh cute rite? it looks like the Bluemarine top i liked but cheaper.

Pale Pink leather skirt! ( haha bought this from a shop which only sells pink, black and white stuff! heaven!)

Nice? Looks like the one kelly chen wore in xiao qing qing! Really cheap!

My new calvin klein coat! haha a pink coat at last! haha

okie gotta study. finals. ahhh.

Hey, I'm in Chicago (la la la haha) now! Anyway I still gotta complete my haiku homework so I'm gonna write it on my blog so I can just copy and paste when I go back. Ain't I smart? haha so ignore this cos its gonna bore u. Anyway I tried on totally gorgeous and etheral Marc Jacobs clothes and I FORGOT TO TAKE PICTURE! manzzz. the coat was so damn nice ok! But its damn a pity cos there's no way I can afford a US$548 pink retro jackie onassis like coat! ahh. Such is the melancholy of a mere mortal . haha. I tried a white jacket too! damn nice and this pink top which has a zipper at the back! cool with a pleated denim mini skirt. Talking abt that makes me pissed. I asked the sales girl whether its on sale and she told me its 40% off BUT WHEN I WENT TO PAY, the other black faced and BLACK grumpy salesgirl say its not! Made me happy for nothing. We complained and questioned the first salesgirl and she admitted she made a mistake and offered to give us 20% discount but I didn't get cos it was still too ex after 20%. I was so disappointed!Damn. Chicago stuff is even more ex than Ann Arbor ( ok like duh!) which means im prob gonna go home empty handed ( besides the instant noodles I bought). *sobz* I'll try to take pictures of the clothes i try tomm! ( heh, im so gonna try all those D&G and wat not. try try and take photo as souvenir!) ok i realise this is such a boring post without photos! I shudder at the fact that I may be making boring posts like dat loser blog I talked abt [which is already deleted by the way] i have a feeling she might be still reading this! ha well one advice for her, she gotta stop using the word ponder, it sounds stupid if all she writes about are stuff not worth PONDERING about. haha read that xiaxue's blog and some guy say we can get sued for defaming a person online! Thats y, no names here! Den I cant be sued! haha .ok im gonna write my haiku now. u can all STOP reading from here onwards.

STOP READING
haha

Butterflies flutter
Against the cloudless blue sky
Ephemeral joy.

Sparkling flickers
Of a whirl of golden lights
Carnival of joy.

Dim street lights shining
Dark and endless street corner
Deserted pathway,

AHHHHHHHHHHHH
I found my tube top but GUESS WHAT???!!!!
I LOST THE URBAN OUTFITTERS RECEIPT! I CANT RETURN MY TOP NOW!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

This song is so nice! But I cant find the mp3 cos the cd not out yet
go to music.yahoo.com.hk and click on the link to watch the mtv and listen to the song.

XBF 薜凱琪

沒有說過第一個是你 但我最怕下一個是你
但這秒 我正式得不到你
願我失戀名單結尾最後一個是你 不要再有分手戲

其實 犯遍了錯誤先碰著你
自信我會懂怎去愛你 盼望最喜歡那個是最後
但最後 未想過放棄 但被人放棄
變成前男友的你
走 我沒有阻止理由 早已知道 能與你挽手都會分手
但最後 讓我點算過去男友 隊伍中有你來過就夠
還憑什麼搏鬥 盼瀑布過後是細水長流
或者我 默言回首 旅途愉快過就夠

若果你熱情流走 有誰能說我未夠

若碰上你是一個運氣 大概我已用光了運氣
熱吻過教我怎捨得憎你 舊愛之中明顯叫我最幸福那是你
只怪我太不爭氣

其實犯遍了錯誤先碰著你
自信我會懂怎去愛你 盼望 最喜歡那個是最後
但最後未想過放棄 但被人放棄
變成前男友的你

走 要是更喜歡自由 相愛不夠
才以作借口 都夠分手
在最後 就似所有過去€1男友 為了拋棄我才邂逅
走 我沒有阻止理由 早已知道 能與你挽手都會分手
但最後 讓我點算過去男友 隊伍中有你來過就夠
還憑什麼搏鬥 盼瀑布過後是細水長流
或者我 默言回首 旅途愉快過就夠

不鬆手都給身走 有誰能說我未夠

arghhhhh dun tell me this is retribution but I just lost my tube top dammit cos i was late in collecting my clothes! shit lah. i was talking to my mom ok. Wah laoz. So small, bet the ang mohs cannot fit also lor, still wanna take. Greedy person. Hope she rips apart the tube. Then she cannot wear also. Wahahaha evil laugh!

Econs Exam
Maths page
( ignore this, i'm just posting this up so i can access the site in chicago. im not bringing my lap top)

THIS IS DAMN SICKENING
The ang mohs are damn lazy ppl. THANKSGIVING DAY NO BUS SERVICES
wah laoz. ITS A TRANSPORTATION SYSTEM LOR FOR GOODNESS SAKE. ahhhh this country is driving me nuts! Inefficient people, prob something about them having the rights not to work on public holidays dammit.

想像某天　又見面
那一天淚光總有點
等待那天　或許已十年
而你或我怎會不變？

READ THE LYRICS TO THIS SONG! IT'S SUPERB!

heh I JUST GOT THE MAGAZINE! and the jay chou photo they put for my article is so cool! haha. YUP DO YOU KNOW THE MODELS FOR THE FASHION SHOW WERE SO DAMN HOT??!!!! whoa im amazed. they're students u know. and i saw this totally cute daniel chan look alike. really damn cute leh he and his fren! haha

Okie weekly feature everybody. Din really like the green top, turn out on film to be a bit sleazy looking. I posted it up but deleted it. haha so no chance to see it! hhaha. i din snap myself in the second top cos i din look too good in it. v wierd. but it looks nice just like dat. oh well. Anyway i bought something new to wear to the magazine thing tomm. Before you guys say anything abt me wasting money again, im gonna return them on monday. YES RETURN. Ok i can anticipate you all calling me cheapo.

OK here are the haikus dun laugh ok? haha

1.Silver moon rising
Elm tree sways in gentle wind
Chilling autumn night

2.Flurries of snow flakes
Dancing in the opaque sky,
Frosting twilight zone.

3. Shattered crystal glass
Reflecting whirls of colors
Broken memories

More to come from crappy haiku master Tiffany.

Its inevitable to feel weak and feeble at certain points of our life, but to be pertually weak just irritates the hell of me. Some people should just scott off to the himalayan hills to live their simple life. I conclude that the real world is too cruel for them. May they find happiness in a trouble free life. They are constantly shroulded in the illusion that they are experiencing a hell lot of trouble and its just not funny when you know they are not. If you want an alternative to sleeping pills or just feel like being critical to relieve stress, ask me for the blog address. I'm not gonna post it here.

I complain about the english analytical essays I have to do, but somehow I'm glad to be in the class. The discussions and stories we read allow me to re-evaluate some of the preconceived ideals and values we tend to follow blindly, restructure my thoughts on self identity, fear and separation. I found the complete text of this particular short story I consider to be the most simple if you just look at it superficially. Re read it again and your views on what each character represents flips 180 degrees around. You fall into the trap of identifying a certain character with an embodiment of virtue. I love the feeling of waking up to the real truth after experiencing the illusion of a false truth. Here's the site: http://xroads.virginia.edu/~DRBR/goodman.html. Read it if you have time ok? It'll probably take you only half an hour. Its a bit morbid and cynical ( yeah what's new rite, coming from me) but it really questions what we always believe in. Do we tend to see ourself as something we're not? Do we overestimate ourselves? Are our self proclaimed religious and moral values still firm if we allow them to be put to test? Or will we show a different horrific side of us which we never knew existed?

人的一生,如果不品嚐一次絕望的滋味,
就無法看清自己到底真正放不下的是什麼,
也不知道真正令自己快樂的是什麼.

是不是擁有以後就會開始要失去?

heh heh everybody, I GOT TICKETS TO FAYE WONG'S DEC CONCERT and its ROW 7!!!! hahaaa

Fear is the realisation of a hopeless situation and the helplessness in rectifying it.

My new lamp!

Feeling kinda depressed about my maths midterms. Sad to say, I resorted to retail therapy yet again. Well, I said I'll post up pictures of the tops I try (which are too expensive to buy). So here goes. My phone camera's quality is not too good. So its a bit blur. The inside piece is a green camisole with sequinned beaded flower motifs and the outerwear is a pink wooly criss crossed sweater. Total value is US$70. (I hate asking this question cos its so retarded, reminds me of AL. But DO I LOOK FAT? im too scared to weigh)


Haha anyway the highlight of the day was me finding a vcd rental shop which has the LATEST titles including daniel wu's most recent film about some devil manifestation, coupled with pedophilic obsession and other not too nice stuff. Borrowed this Stephen Fung magic trick thinge, dun even think they have it in singapore so im quite excited. Its not too expensive either, only US$4.50 for 3 movies.

It's SNOWING!

Thanks Sera! I got those super cute M & Ms!You made my day!

At first I thought sammi cheng's new song 美麗的誤會 isn't v good. But the more I listen, the better it gets! Plus it's supposedly a big hint of sammi and andy's relationship. GO READ THE LYRICS!

那時候 聽《愛如潮水》
想像著萬一我們不是一對
以後誰會在深夜裡孤獨的買醉
這一晚 我一個人睡
防備著那於是無補的傷悲
還有很多工作 只能面對 不能憔悴

* 我為我的堅強而驕傲
卻為這段情 感到慚愧
我只能夠承認失去了你 都無所謂

# 我聽的歌 愛的人 說的話
是不是美麗的誤會
我不能為你 不顧一切的崩潰
除非這樣子能保證把你挽回

我牽的手 傷的心 流的淚
是不是浪漫的誤會
是愛的太傷 還是傷的太美
難道你還不會讓我的心醉
(在愛情的面前我寧願卑微)

這一晚 聽《愛如潮水》
數算著為感情而吃過的虧
彷彿的麻木是不是我學到的智能
有時候 我們都很累
還以為分手之後就有機會
讓我們說後悔 為了失戀 為所欲為

It is puzzling as to why some attempt to paint abstract representations of themselves on their blogs . The facade fades off immediately especially if they are your acquaintances. Is the virtual identity a personification mask to hide behind, or is it plainly an ideal personality mould for the eternally confused and self unassured individuals? Perhaps, it is merely a form of illusional comfort zone. Sometimes the supeficiality of the deepness surfaces and it is rather amusing. It just completely baffles me as to why anyone will want to self delude themselves and others into recognising an intellect which is non-existent.

haha I discovered this resident hunk in the campus StarBucks! He looks like a cross between Johnny Depp and Spike (from Buffy the Vampire Slayer, the blonde one, rem?)! Cool and dangerous looking. haha. hmm, that gives me another reason to go there other than the delicious White Chocolate Mocha. Too bad, cant snap picture for u all to see. It is definitely impossible. haha.

Utterly pissed. Dammit.

As much as I hate to admit this, kids are sometimes quite cute. Dunno whether I've told u all that I joined this K grams thing where u write letters to pri sch kids ( yah yah i know what u all are gonna say, abt me terrorising and traumatising the kid rite? hrmphh). Today I just got my second reply. It's so cute I have to post it up for u all to admire. haha



Really made my day.

I just found out that there're people who actually gained 6KG since coming here. I'm just too freaked to weigh my self! Shit. I feel damn fat already. Please dun laugh at me when I come back. Depressing. I shall save up for Marie France Bodyline. haha. Or u all can chip in and give me as my xmas present haha.

Life is frail and unpredictable. You could leave this world simply because of a wrong decision, wrong timing or just by being in the wrong place.

Over the withered fields
Dreams go wandering still

Its two lines from this final poem composed by a haiku master upon his death. Morbid u might think. But it is actually relating to us the importance of having dreams because dreams compel us to live and and seek. Without dreams, reality is ultimately an illusion.
Somehow, our discussion drifted off to The Unbearable Lightness of Being by Milan Kundera. I've never really understood the title's meaning although I've always thought that those simple words meant much more than their literal meaning. Now I know it represents life when the gravity and weight of living is suddenly cut off from your world, how the immense feelings and emotions you invest in a certain person is just cut off (in the book, the cause for this was an accident). Life becomes so light and simple, yet ironically u find it unbearable because of the absence of weight, the absence of feeling, the absence of a loved one. I think i'm going to buy the book after my maths exam on thursday.

I always spend so much money on fridays dammit! Its like I went to get a card, and I dun have cash so used my debit card. The salesgirl told me that I have to purchase a minimum of $5 before I can use the card. Since the nearby atm is spoilt and using atm machines of another bank will incur an extra fee of $2, i decided to get sth else to make up $5. That's when I saw this really cute lip balm ( champagne strawberry, damn nice rite?). Of cos, I had to buy it anyway my lips are chapped so it is a necessity. haha. So the total came up to $8. Yes. I set off expecting to spend 2.50 and look what happened. That's not all!. Since it's friday, I don't eat in the sucky dining hall with inedible food so I go to my fav chinese restaurant to eat. (even if it meant eating alone, cos no one wants to waste their meals. like watever. I'd rather pay a bit more to eat human food). On my way back, i had to pass by my fav shop - urban outfitters. naturally I walked in, despite the fact that I still have to study for math exam. Tried 5 pieces of clothing ( trying clothes is my new fav past time, too ex cant buy? its ok. trying gives me the satisfaction. by the way there's always the heavenly option of returning after buying, best thing abt US so far). Wanted to buy this 60s style retro dress ( which looks like a cheaper version of this louis vuitton dress), but well it cost 54 bucks US. so I decided to not waste money. Instead, I chanced upon this hair gel which smells really nice and creates dat messy look. So i decided to get it. Another 18 bucks gone. Oh man. I really gotta stop this retail therapy thing. its killing my bank acct!

I hate asking people how to do a question and they give me one liners. Like if I know, I wouldn't have to ask rite? It makes me feel super stupid. Like such a simple question also dunno how to do, you should just go to hell.

Murderous Maths ( alliteration haha) is killing. stupid integration and stupid webhw. taken up my whole day. sighz anyway listening to the sammi cheng song makes me feel sad, and me feeling sad induces me to think about depressing stuff. I hate to write some mushy wushy stuff ( sounds like someone, rite?). Its mundane and bores pple to death. But I reallly really really miss all of you. Its not as if I dun have friends here (limited, yes. but there's still a number) but I wanna just say mean stuff with you guys, laugh at things, n stop being nice just for one moment. I hate being too nice. You know me rite, I'm a cynical thinker. I'm good at sarcasm and morbidity (ok, does that make me sound psycho? maybe not tt extreme haha) I'm NOT good at being nice! It's like i think my meaness makes me funny, without my meaness, .........( ok im not datttt funny, but still ) argh. I can't wait to come back in dec. Ull have to pardon my extreme meaness when I come back cos it's been bottled up for too long.haha

not in the mood to write anything, so i'll just put up this really nice picture. Gigi leung is really damn pretty! plus the whole of the photo is so artistic.

ECONS SUCKED!
Die lah. how??
This is depressing.
Let me wallow in self pity.

now THIS is more like it.

You are Daria.
Thinks fast; Talks slow.


What Daria Character are You?
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Well, I've done that nemo personality test and i got nemo. Still, I don't believe in how those 10 questions are relevant in determining your personality so I'm not gonna put it up. It doens't even say anything abt morbid and cynical nature, how can it be accurate anyway? Entirely doubt its validity. It only has positive normal characters. (except the shark one, n i din get it) So,maybe I should take a Daria personality test if there ever was one. I should devise one, and you all can take it. Then you can see if ure daria, jane, quinn, sandy, stacy, tiffany(not me!), jake, helen, brittany (bimbo!) , kevin( himbo) or Mr De Martino(ure gonna cry if u get this one)... okie i figured that NO ONE will understand what I'm saying beyond daria and jane. haha well so i'll go search for this test n put it up if i can find it!

The internet is totally not a safe place. I found out from novalia that people can access our blogs just by searching on Yahoo. Then there's this fact that some person might be reading your blog right this minute without you knowing it. (may not even be your fren) Don't you think it's creepy? haha well not like I've never done that before. haha but still I don't think i'm gonna be too bothered by that. I'll still write my psychotic thoughts down. Who cares if anyone reads it? I wont know they read it. I'll just live in my world of delusional ignorance.

Sighz! Big dilemma! I've always wanted to like move out of the dorm and then my room mate doesn't want to ever move out. My other friend wants to but she is not sure yet. Then her friend is looking for co-op housing where you HAVE to work inside the student run house in order to exchange for a cheaper rent. THEN NOW, meng joo asked me whether I wanna room with her and her friends. I actually want to cos I know mengjoo and one of her other friends. But then it'll be two guys two girls including me which im perfectly ok with, and the problem is my parents might not like the idea and I may just lose the chance to move out! Oh mans, n we gotta decide fast cos we're already super late. Supposedly, the aprt we want is only left with the last unit. HOW HOW HOW?? sighzzzzzzz i really dun wanna stay in stockwell for 3 whole yrs.

For my friend! Cheer up ok? smilez!

大概这算是迷恋
这路程得几分钟真是太短
大概你都想去后乐园
却怕孤单一个人兜圈
谁人在挑选如何被挑选
如何教我结识你汤怎么相恋
为何坐到这么近
却想得这样远
人浪为何会流转
若幸运一点一早找到你
但幸运可否担保得到你
就望着际遇铺展我的天与地
愿错亦错得起
若命运叫我只懂喜欢你
但愿亦有幸懂得留住你
如若过去我太在乎相遇别离
请准我预备河从来未吻你
却已学懂去被忘记
(仍然未识你出却已幻想那份惊喜)
凭什么可以爱上所爱
我自问日夜等待
结局为何揭不开
等缘份品信缘份
我们只好相信下集定是更精彩
(我们只好相信来来回回难避开)
大概你正在回想
与别人刚刚分手刚受过伤
从前伴侣碰不见
你我偏可遇上
人寂寞便爱幻想

The little boy's smile and wave is so beautiful and serene, yet the music is so sad. Just the melody makes me feel melancholic. Do you think its ironic to feel depressed and peaceful at the same time? It's a funny feeling that one is at peace with depression. Oh perhaps its because of the feeling of mundane peace that you feel depressed over the lack of excitement?